En son yazımı 1 Kasım 2016'da yazmışım.Hatta 1 Kasım'dan sonra böyle bir blogumun olduğu aklıma çok nadir geliyordu,en sonunda 7 Haziran 2017 saat 3.30 da" ya benim yazı yazdığım bir sitem vardı ne oldu ona" diye bloga bir bakış attım.Konu başlıklarına bakmam bile beni 8 ay önceki o rahat koltuğumda otururken ki ana götürmeye yetti,kullanma tarihi geçmiş düşünceler ve aşklarım.
Şuan mı ? Şuan üniversitemin ilk senesinin bittiği gün.Oh dear university,nothing changed after you,same disappointments,same dream, same people.Actually,before the beginning of you , i had a lot of ideas about you and me dear,i hoped i will be fine , i will be totally fine.I dreamed you come to me by flowers' way.I hoped my obsessions should be died by you,but no , no ! Nothing changed,as i wanted so much,which things i should do my own , i expected you could do , these are made me fool darling.My eyes hadn't looked very well,my heart always have wanted something but I nothing got.Why I am writing this by english,already you don't know who I am , but still I am writing in english.Yes,english is shield, english covers my weaknesses,unhappiness.
After lies,i am starting real situations.I drinked my first alcohol on this year,i had sex with someone on this year , i have met perfect people on this year,my dorms friends ! They are emotional like me , they like songs ( but really songs).When you feel bad , you can talk them, it makes you better, trust me.Also,teachers ! They aren't teachers they are my family.Bünyamin,Seda,Evrim,Mutlu... I love you.
I have moreover,actually my readers, my obsessions are day by day dying,my heart more strong now,I can dominate him.
Now I am listening Giorgos Dalaras-Sto pa kai sth ksanaleo, o Giorgo you are really good,you have some repellent attitude but I love you :)
It's enough,see you the next year.
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